The odd Sunflower


From the garden of sunflowers,
i saw the odd one and got stung by the bees.
It didn’t hurt much just enough to remind me, that I reached for something I shouldn’t.

What happiness is this, that aches in pain. 
It knows it shouldn’t last, it’s scared of being real to be true. Maybe it’s not bliss 
Maybe it’s just peace pretending to stay, 
Before the chaos devours my soul.

So I return to the garden again and again,
Searching for that odd sunflower in the swarm,
Hoping this time the bees will take 
Pity on me watching me crave
and leave me nothing to mourn.
Still when the petal falls i'll gather them, 
Press them between pages that smell like regret. 


Still I can't hate the sting, the ache lingers
and If the yearning stays,so will I, let it end me.
 

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